New Year New Hope

I know it has been awhile since I have written but life has been crazy the good kind of crazy. I am finally starting to get settled in my my new home. It is still a mess which is really hard on me - I can't wait to get it organized. The first 3 weeks of January were amazing and full of hope. the losing weight thing isn't going great but I am constantly adjusting, and trying new things. I am going to try gluten free - which is HUGE for me and very not tempting lol. But maybe my stomach won't be as messed up. My rent essentially went up 30 bucks a month simply because I now have to pay for parking. My flatemates weren't the most helpful in the situation a good grounding in reality for me. And shortly after I learned my playing so much is causing me to fail one of my classes at school and I had a girl freak out on me cause i am hanging out with her ex and now he seems to have pulled away. So Dec and Jan were amazing but looks like I am going into Feb in my same routine and I have somehow already expected too much of the year. Oh well I have lived through worse than this and now I have to keep plowing!!! The funny thing is the church I am currently going to is preaching on community and I am pissed at God for throughing the community deal at me from every direction when I can't make it happen through all the different ways I try!!! I am once again done - course that means nothing!!! But I am trying really hard on not freaking out as this is only one back week and I am sure life will bounce back eventually.